Though Nemo has grown old enough to go to school, when Marlin looks at him, he sees this:
|© 2003 Walt Disney Pictures/Pixar Animation Studios.|
Though Ian has grown to this:
When I look at him, I see this:
I was happy and sad at the same time. Happy that I finally had my baby, and that he had made it this far. Sad that everything wasn't 100% fine and there were going to be a lot of hard things to deal with in the future. Like Nemo's dad, all I wanted to do was hold him and promise I'd never let anything bad happen to him.
The hard things never go away - and neither does the sadness - but luckily it is tempered by so many wonderful, special, every-day moments with Ian that bring me so much happiness and joy. Those are the moments that keep me going, even through the hard stuff.
Today, Ian went on his first field trip with his 4K class to a pumpkin patch. He got to ride on a bus with a wheelchair lift, which he was very excited about. I dropped him off at the school and watched him wheel down towards the bus with his teacher, so grown up and independent.
Nevertheless, I still saw this (and probably always will):
|Ian in the hospital after his first shunt revision surgery at 3 months old.|